Monday, August 28, 2006
so hungry, so hungry. -______-
i really want to play the flute now. like, NOW. i haven't touched it since the tk concert and oh boy, was i surprised i still remember how to play. :D anyone has a spare flute around? :) but no no, i don't think i will join the orchestra in university. 6 years is enough. but i still want to play the flute at my own leisure. i don't understand why michelle bought a cello! haha. i want to play the flute. burning desire to play the flute NOW. : how now brown cow?
driving test on saturday! -shrieks- if i do not pass, i have to return next summer and take everything all over again. tsk, waste of money. aiyo, never mind, God's favour is with me. hee. let thy will be done! :D
3 weeks left on this sunny island. :) or :( ?
time to cook lunch. tata!
He's my way
Friday, August 25, 2006
MY SISTER WASTED MY GLITTER GLUE! who on earth will use glitter glue to write "hello ah mei!"
EEEEEEE. so unflattering! at least my head looks much smaller than the one on the left! :)
who is this cute and pretty girl?! at least i don't have to be ridiculed by the immigration officers everytime i pass the customs. :D I HAVE A NEW PASSPORT! :D
xiao xiong, less sorrowful. :) he's not smiling but at least he's not frowning.

xiao xiong, as sorrowful as ever! smile leh!!
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aiyoo. i just remembered i blogged and saved as draft. never mind, i shan't post it up. :D
you know, i should blog man. or else it would seem like i vanished from the surface of the earth when i'm in london. even jing shan blogs regularly. even j.i.n.g. HAHA. ok i shall stop pokin fun at you, or else you won't send me illinois speciality or what. what is illinois speciality anyway? the *ahem* orange illinois blanket? HAHA.
soooo many things and events are happening. WHEE! :D i even celebrated my birthday one month in advance. :)
today, i discovered that i only have ONE measly luggage. aiyo. cham. which means that i must go and buy. grrrr. and everytime i think of the visa i feel so qi kek. AIYO. at least i have my air ticket already. :)
la di da. oooh. the seniors drink alot alot ALOT! -_____- how haaaaaaaar.
i'm going to the ministry later. YAY.
how random, how haphazard.
"I command you--be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."-Joshua 1:9
He's my way
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
hiatus no more. (lousy larh.)
Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am.
-isaiah 58:9
if only you knew.
He's my way
Sunday, August 13, 2006
byebye jingz. T_T

see you next summer.
going on a hiatus. won't be back for a while. see you.
damn you, devil. quit taking me on a pendulum swing. -shrieeeeeeeks- -SHRIEKS- if only you knew. if only you weren't always on busy/away mode. i wish i could talk to someone. if only i would stop clamming up. if only. alas, i only have myself to blame.
He's my way
the stronger blue of the sky melded into the softer blue of the sea.
He's my way
Saturday, August 12, 2006
thank you girls! :) you all never fail to surprise me every year. thank you very much! thank you for the wonderful friendship that has stayed so strong despite the very different paths we have taken. i feel loved. i feel comforted by your presence. :) thank you. thank you. thank you!!
i talked to andy online yesterday. hoho. that boy actually thought that i hated him during obs because i always gave him funny faces when he talked to me. then i said " er andy. i give everyone funny faces." paranoia. haha.
this afternoon, i went out with jingz for the very last time before she flies. a short outing, but still lovely. :)
sigh. spirit come... fill this place.. fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill fill.
come.
He's my way
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
random thought number 1) yay. i managed to sleep till 9am today. :) my body alarm clock is far too early for my liking.
random thought number 2) i went to bukit chandu yesterday, where one of the fiercest battle was fought before the british surrendered during the great war. salute the heroes! so.many.people.died. so many. the stories are gruesome too, and it didn't help that i am reading a fiction book based on world war 2, france. the massacre in oradour was described in great detail. : anyway, i heard this story before, but i have forgotten it till i read it again yesterday at bukit chandu. alexandra hospital, the best equipped british military hospital during the wars. the japanese troops marched in. the lieutenant(how do you spell it.) tied a white bedsheet to the pole and surrendered. surrender accepted. they bayonet-ted him to death. and they dashed into the operating theatre, bayonet-ted the 2 doctors operating on the patient. and the helpless patient was murdered too. : they went on to massacre the whole hospital and less than 5 survivors lived to tell the story.
hoho. alexandra hospital is in my cluster and i am going to work there cause we have to rotate hospital every 1 to 2 years.
o Lord, i pray for peace around the world. wars no more, Father!!
random thought number 3) a safe haven no more.
random thought number 4)
happy birthday, singapore! :)
once a year, singaporeans from all walks of life will don red i-love-singapore shirts and flood the streets. once a year, the air will be teeming with the spirit of patriotism before singaporeans reverting back to their complacent selves. i'm really grateful and thankful to be a singaporean. :) where else can you find a world class education, internal stability and harmony, the multiracial and religious society, a magical government (albeit leaning towards totalitarian. hahaha) and the best makan paradise? i shall proudly wave my little singapore flag when i'm in london. :)
random thought number 5) sigh. no tickets to national day parade this year! :( boo. on this day last year, i was signing the pledge and the song at the parade. :D hoho.
random thought number 6) i was queueing up in the bank that day, a man caught my attention. he was sloppily dressed, slightly unkempt, clutching on to a single wafer-thin ten dollar note. he was fidgety and nervous, as though someone would snatch his precious note away, as though depositing a ten dollar note was a major milestone in his life. see how much a ten dollar note means to him? see how we often indulge in extravagant lifestyles and we have forgotten the poor? what does a 10 dollar note mean to you and what does a 10 dollar note mean to that ah chek? let's all stop to think.
random thought number 7) so glad i went back to dsa yesterday. :) i guess the dsa peepz are the most patriotic lot i have ever known. i really miss them. i didn't realise that till i saw them yesterday.
johnson tottered up to me and said
"hi my loyal best friend~ i like you leh."
guilt-ridden.
"so johnson, how's pastor?"
"very good! i still love him!"
"what about God?"
"oooh very good! what about yours?"
"oh my God very good."
random thought number 8) everyone's going off to school except for me!! there's still about four weeks plus more. hoho. at least the aussie people are even later than me. i can't wait to start school. :)
He's my way
Sunday, August 06, 2006
"I suppose I should wish you success,
but that’s really too easy.
I would like to wish you something that
Is harder to come by.
So I am going to wish you meaning in your life.
And meaning is not something you stumble across,
like the answer to a riddle or the prize in a treasure hunt.
Meaning is something you build into your life.
You build it out of your own past,
out of your affections and loyalties,
out of the experience of humankind as it is passed on to you,
out of your own talent and understanding,
out of things you believe in,
out of the things and people you love,
out of the values for which you are willing to sacrifice something.
The ingredients are there,
you are the only one who
can put them together into that unique pattern that will be your life.
Let it be a life that has dignity and meaning for you!
If it does, then the particular
balance of success or failure is of less account.”
~ John W. Gardner
something that left us washingsengs (oh. we are called washingseng cause we come from 2 watches, washington and tock seng. :) )pondering because we heard this twice over three days. back from obs. really wonderful. it's amazing how we entered ubin as strangers and left as friends. i'm sure we won't remember the johari's window, how to tie all the knots, how to pitch a tent, but the strong bond and the memories formed will last. aiyo, after all we're all in the same field and we're all going overseas to study so i guess we really need each other. ;D
trust.
i have forgotten how to trust and the meaning of trust has been revived. soo fuuuuuuuuuuuuun. :) i was so happy there. :) even kayaking with the lizard and the spider seems kind of funny now. hahaha. i miss the quarry!
yup. :) they are nice people after all. sarah seeemed rather shocked that "we are nice" and she kept going that " thaaaaaaaankeeeeeeew. you all very niiiiiice leeeeh." haha.
i'm soaring, washingseng.
say byebye to baptism. :(
the eleventh commandment, crow lake:
thou shall not emote.
keeper of the law.
He's my way
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
daniel sms-ed me from thailand!
i think i shouldn't blog now because pessimism is brimming within me. haha.
vj didn't give me my cheque! :(
ok. i had this horrid nightmare about baptism and was floating in and out of sleep the whole night. in desperation, i uttered out," God, you don't want me to get baptised arh?"
and then He spoke.
so maybe i should tell my cell leader about this whole baptism thing. or my cell group. but then i assume that because some of them read this. so i don't see the need to. and i smuggled 2 baptism forms into my bag on sunday and 2 of them saw so they know i am thinking of getting baptised. and i have never verbally talked about this before. see, virtual space ain't good. who said that technology is bringing people closer?
see. i am caught up in my small little world. yuucks.
yafen, look at the world out there. open your eyes. the nations are calling. why are you bothered about such a teeny weeny thing?
tsk tsk.
shame on you.
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