what's this man. why is he so impulsive! :( sigh sigh sigh. what a shame to end such a beautiful career this way. :( but italy wasn't that bad. let's give them some credit. why isn't england even in the semi-finals. :( no more matches. no more late nights. candice, qi and jingz slept the match away yesterday. :P

hmmm. i don't know, maybe it is because i'm reading following the wrong god home by catherine lim now, but i'm starting to wonder more about the foreign workers who worked hard to come here, just to earn a living and support their family back in their homeland. and only the more fortunate ones reach our sunny island. some of them aren't treated like human. they are traded and sold like pigs in the market. the less fortunate ones will be boguht by pirates and meanies and from then they will serve as prostitutes. not easy for them to come here you know. and once they are here, they will face discrimination from the general public (people like xiaxue. boo. she deserves to be banned.) the men will stay in cramped living quarters not fit for human. yet most of them persevere on. for money? do they deserve this kind of treatment. oh well. i'm too immature to understand many things. but i guess.. happiness is relative. please help me to know how blessed i am. jolt me with the reality of this cruel world. thank you Father, for loving me and blessing me so much.

resilience reigns. it's good to see people bouncing back, coming out of shells of depression. i was feeling supernaturally happy in church yesterday, feeling eccentrically happy for no reason. i was so overwhelmed with joy that i felt like i was leaving my skin behind on earth and i could soar towards the sky. was i really joyous? o Lord, i want to love You from the inside out. fill me with a longing for You. let me thirst for Your presence. i know this is what You want and this is what i want and this is what we both want. what's so difficult?! -slaps myself- but, without struggles, there won't be victories. Lord, fill me with child-like faith i once held so strongly onto. Lord, rejuvenate me. Lord, 2 sided relationship. not one. not input from you only.

Lord, tasukete. ai ga mottitai desu.

"So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and steady, always enthusiastic about the Lord's work, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless."- 1 corinthians 15:58