i'll be the one 2 shout Your fame

Sunday, June 11, 2006

let me tell you of the great wonders of our living God. :)

Daddy spoke. i didn't really expect to encounter Him that much during this camp. He spoke. i didn't expect Him to speak in the ways He did but it was so different yet refreshing.

i went to camp not wanting to make any friends. but i did. no regrets. haha.

and i think i have inactive tear glands. :( boo. boo. BOO.

worship under the stars was fantastic. :) that night, Daddy said that He wanted me to be happy and joyful. He wanted joy to fill my life like the numerous stars in the sky. even in my sleep that very night, He told me that He wants me to walk joyfully in the light. pastor prayed for us individually. thoughts and questions were swimming in my head prior to that and as pastor prayed, i felt like God was really really speaking even though pastor didn't know what i was thinking. i was like WOOOW. use me, Father. i am willing.

i told some stuff to meijin i never imagined i would ever say out loud. (ok la. write to someone. cause i communicated using letters) this is also the first time i ever felt such strong comfort though she didn't speak a word.

the Lord wants me to let go. as the sun rose, He spoke. He said that it's a new beginning for me once more and He wants me to let go of the past and live joyfully. Jehovah Rophe, my healer. the sky holds many answers, if you look carefully. quality time with God was however disrupted.. was feeling a tad disappointed. as i walked back to prepare to go for famine training camp. i felt unfulfilled because i have not really laid down every burden down at the cross and i still harboured unGodly feelings within me. i have not really submitted to Him fully. and i didn't want to leave till i could. but i had to. the Lord affirmed that He wants me to go for famine camp a few days earlier. but i was so tired and i was so whiny and i was so unfulfilled that i toyed with the idea of skipping the camp. thank God, i overcame that surge of disobedience and trudged my way to the famine camp. (even though i wanted to jump at almost all the oncoming cars on my way out)

was i glad i went! :) felt so much better after arriving because i could feel His sweet presence lingering in the vicinity. even though i have watched the videos, have been through the briefings and programmes a few times, i met really passionate people. Lord, lead me. :) i really feel the strong urge to enlarge His territories.

God spoke so much so much, some of which i am not comfortable sharing here. He is real. and His love is so wide and so deep and so high and so long. He loves me so much. and you too.

i need a prayer. anyone?

~~He's~~ my way