i guess that this is a letter never to be sent out. i guess that you will never read this. yes, but nicole dear, this is what i want to tell you.
earlier this week, i was reflecting and praising the Lord for this marvellous journey that He has led me to. then, i thought of you. you were a vital and crucial pillar of support in my first steps towards Daddy, when i was so fresh and young in His eyes. i relied and depended so heavily on you and you were always there for me. to listen to the concerns so silly and the questions so naive. you were just a sms away.
you deciphered my first dream, even though you and i were both not aware of that at that point in time. alas, that was the first of many dreams i had.
nicole, i guess you will be glad to hear that i have learnt to rely on others now, and that i am now growing to love the cell group more and more. no longer acquaintances but sisters. i know that you will be rejoicing with me that Daddy is working in my household and in my life. He is so real! there are so many stories i want to share with you. but i don't know how.
indeed, it was awkward as we conversed today. the conversation might have seemed superficial but i was still glad. you were still so reassuring, you still seem so wise. i was glad that i could see the old nicole in you. no, nicole, you didn't brush me aside 2 years ago. i was also being difficult and i didn't know how to react. it takes 2 hands to clap, remember? what a pity we have drifted apart so much we barely converse now.
i never had a chance to thank you. you never knew how much i appreciate you. but still, i want to praise God for you. :) my spiritual journey would not have started with such an awesome bang. thank you for sharing, thank you for all your teachings, thank you for being there in the past.
me.
ah^ya
child of God
25th september 1987
18-going-19
hougang kindergarten
st. hilda's primary school
tanjong katong girls' school
victoria junior college
soon-to-be university college london :)
