yesterday i murdered mr laminating machine (let's call him ah lam for short). :( i fed it paper and it never got laminated. it went in and it never came out. i attempted a bypass on ah lam but i couldnt find the right scalpel (aka screwdriver). when i finally cut open ah lam's body, he was gone. he choked to death on paper. :( i was the cause of it. i should have conducted CPR when i knew that something was amiss. instead, i let his condition deterioriate. i laid hands and prayed for ah lam, but still, he did not come back to life.
rest in peace, ah lam.
today was lagi worse. when i arrived at DSA, there was a colony of a few hundred flies at the doorstep! but they were all dead. i thought. apparently, they sprayed baygon last night to wipe out the flies. i was givem the honour to sweep them away and to pluck the flies who were stuck to the cupboard. lo and behold, half of them were still wriggling on the ground! and i murdered many! :( so sad. :( poor flies.
rest in peace, flies.
oh maaan. monogoloid is a bad word. i dont understand how some people can use such a crude term. anyway, as i amble out to work every morning, i pass by the same girl everyday. yes. she looks very young.. maybe even younger than i am. she is either filipino/indonesian. at 730am every morning, she washes her owner's car. she's far away from her homeland. sometimes, a surge of sympathy rushes through me. she's a domestic servant and she's younger than me. if i put myself into her shoes, will i be happy washing cars and dishes for a living? is she happy? and i realised that happiness is relative. she may be feeling like she's at the top of the world. she's supporting her family and trying to break them out of the vicious cycle of poverty. though fear and uncertainty seem to envelope her, i still see a glimmer of hope flickering in her eyes. Lord, bless her and i pray that You will let joy fall upon her! transform her life and bless her with a life of miracles! :)
for the first time in a long long while, my bible is not in my bag. i thought that it would be really weird if i read the bible and do quiet time on the mrt because it is infested with people. and i saw someone reading the bible on the mrt today. for the first time. Lord, sorry! :( yes yes, i know that You are saying it is NOT weird at all. ok ok. tomorrow, my bible shall resume its original position.
me.
ah^ya
child of God
25th september 1987
18-going-19
hougang kindergarten
st. hilda's primary school
tanjong katong girls' school
victoria junior college
soon-to-be university college london :)
